Savanna brought home a really nasty stomach bug and shared it with everyone except Jeff. It hit them all in the middle of the night and they got it about 2 days apart from each other. So I was up almost 24 hours days for about a week. Good times. On top of that I had a crown put in, that ended up turning into a root canal. It was not an easy month. I tried so hard to look on the bright side, but I was full of anxiety about if the tooth actually needed a root canal, who to trust to do the root canal, if the pain would stop if I got a root canal, how we would afford a root canal, why my teeth are so awful in spite of how meticulous I am about flossing and brushing, who was going to get the stomach bug next, if everyone would be healthy by Christmas, and on and on. When I was able to sleep, I would wake up in a panic sweating and out of breath and just full blown anxiety. It.was.awful. I felt like I was going crazy. I could hardly get through each day and I just felt so alone. Logically, I knew and recognized all of my blessings and knew it was anxiety that was taking over, but I couldn't stop it like I usually can. I finally got my tooth fixed and thankfully, the pain went away with it. Unfortunately, due to the high does of Advil I was on for such a long time, headaches became an even worse issue than normal once I was no longer taking it. So I had to work through some pretty horrific days of immense pain and vomiting from the rebound headaches. But once I got through those, things started to look up and I was slowly, slowly able to get back to feeling more like myself. December really wasn't a fantastic month, but there were some good moments and I am so grateful for the unconditional love from
my sweet girls. No matter awful I felt, they were always happy to see me, pray for me, and tell me they loved me. I am so grateful the sickness passed and that they were better by Christmas!
Savanna brought home a really nasty stomach bug and shared it with everyone except Jeff. It hit them all in the middle of the night and they got it about 2 days apart from each other. So I was up almost 24 hours days for about a week. Good times. On top of that I had a crown put in, that ended up turning into a root canal. It was not an easy month. I tried so hard to look on the bright side, but I was full of anxiety about if the tooth actually needed a root canal, who to trust to do the root canal, if the pain would stop if I got a root canal, how we would afford a root canal, why my teeth are so awful in spite of how meticulous I am about flossing and brushing, who was going to get the stomach bug next, if everyone would be healthy by Christmas, and on and on. When I was able to sleep, I would wake up in a panic sweating and out of breath and just full blown anxiety. It.was.awful. I felt like I was going crazy. I could hardly get through each day and I just felt so alone. Logically, I knew and recognized all of my blessings and knew it was anxiety that was taking over, but I couldn't stop it like I usually can. I finally got my tooth fixed and thankfully, the pain went away with it. Unfortunately, due to the high does of Advil I was on for such a long time, headaches became an even worse issue than normal once I was no longer taking it. So I had to work through some pretty horrific days of immense pain and vomiting from the rebound headaches. But once I got through those, things started to look up and I was slowly, slowly able to get back to feeling more like myself. December really wasn't a fantastic month, but there were some good moments and I am so grateful for the unconditional love from
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